June 30th 2010

  I know it's hard...for me too. Let me give you a quick example of opening yourself up to Him so that he can reach you, OK Well, Monday and Tuesday I received a couple of emails and messages telling me how very much these women loved reading the book I wrote. They said that they cried some, but also smiled a lot when reading it, and one said that her head tingled the whole time she read it. i was very happy to hear this! Yesterday all day I kept feeling Michael all around me. Everywhere I went, I was reminded of Him. I kept getting chills all over my body. One thought after another was of memories of Michael...past dreams, past experiences, a song on the radio, a conversation with my daughter or friend. I had a busy day yesterday. My daughter had dr. appointment, my dog needed to picked up after a surgery and cared for, then my daughter had a function from 5-7 last night. I had to write 2 checks to pay for stuff and I wrote June 30th on both of them. All day I thought it was the 30th. I kept getting chills all day up and down my skin, and I felt like I was floating thinking about Michael. He just kept popping up in my head. I ended the day last night laying in bed wondering why He had been in my head so much on the 30th? What was the significance of that date? I couldn't figure it out. BUT then, this morning I was talking to my mother and we were looking at our calendar concerning an upcoming event and she said today was the 30th. I said no today is Thursday July 1st. She said no, one more time. All of a sudden I KNEW why yesterday was filled with Michael making his presence known in my mind all day long. It was the 29th and this is a number he and I share together...we were both born on the 29th: him in August, me in March! I've always liked sharing this number with him. So, without realizing this, he had been letting me know all day long that I was not alone. I just had to be open to it to feel it. He did always talk about the magic in life. This was some of his magic I felt on the 29th. Things like this give me strength to get through missing him with all my heart.

June 13, 2010   

 Living here in South Louisiana, my mind has been drifting to the oily devastation of our coastline. My heart is heavy for two reasons this month: Of course I am feeling so very sad as that horrible day, June 25th, nears us. I know that Michael's spirit is all around me every day, and our spirit lives forever..."I am forever" as He said. But I miss him, I cannot stop those feelings from washing over me, wave after wave. I look at his photos, I watch his videos, and most importantly, I read "Dancing the Dream" by Michael, another time. His wonderful, insightful, beautiful and sweet words embrace me. I feel as though I am wrapped in a warm, soft, snuggly blanket as I read this book!
      But then, I am horrified as I see those news reports about all those innocent animals washing up covered in oil, dead or dying. I know that Michael would be crying, as I am, about this catastrophe. So many people's lives will be ruined by this, and we will be negatively affected for years to come. This will affect the world's oceans, because we are all connected...one world, one planet. Michael said it best: "You're just another part of me."